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03 December 2006 @ 01:49 pm
the sun is out, and i am fine.
01 December 2006 @ 04:39 pm
and i want to let go
but i can't, 'cause i care
and i don't want to

another day of anxiety, of thoughts of you i cannot escape
things i should've, and should not have said
it always comes out wrong when there's something on the line

i want to be held, i want to scream out
but instead i sink deeper inside
my mind

i really care, and i want you in my life
i never had the opportunity to be your friend..
to busy hiding as your lover.
i want to open, be equals

days will pass, have passed.. i thought it'd be easier
it seems to keep becoming more difficult to forget
i just remember more. and longing

sleepless nights, followed by mornings of depression
and days of killing what's left
i meant it when i said i love you.

i know you never felt the same, and that's okay.
you tried the best way you knew how
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: devendra banhart
23 November 2006 @ 07:36 pm

the Romantic

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

  • Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.

  • Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value

  • Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.

  • Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy,
    I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.

  • Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a Four

  • my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep

  • my ability to establish warm connections with people

  • admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life

  • my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor

  • being unique and being seen as unique by others

  • having aesthetic sensibilities

  • being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a Four

  • experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair

  • feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved

  • feeling guilty when I disappoint people

  • feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me

  • expecting too much from myself and life

  • fearing being abandoned

  • obsessing over resentments

  • longing for what I don't have

Fours as Children Often

  • have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in
    original game

  • are very sensitive

  • feel that they don't fit in

  • believe they are missing something that other people have

  • attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.

  • become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood

  • feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents'

Fours as Parents

  • help their children become who they really are

  • support their children's creativity and originality

  • are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings

  • are sometimes overly critical or overly protective

  • are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy

Discover the 9 Types of People

SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

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You are not completely happy with the result?!

You chose BY

Would you rather have chosen:

  • AY (EIGHT)
  • CY (SIX)
  • BX (NINE)
  • BZ (FIVE)

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    You scored higher than 31% on ABC
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    Current Mood: highhigh
    Current Music: the brian jonestown massacre.
    31 October 2006 @ 04:30 pm
    Haiku2 for suavesativa
    grass and smoked a
    bowl in this little wooden
    house on the playground
    Created by Grahame

    well that is fitting.
    Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
    Current Music: built to spill
    31 May 2006 @ 02:07 am
    great day today, chilled in the harvard sq commons.
    laid in the grass and smoked cheeb all day with new friends, bbq in the backyard (best burger ive ever had).

    then we roasted marshmellows they were super delicious!

    [props to nora for being an awesome cook.]

    then we went to arlington and looked out at the lit up city skyline, it was lovely but a little sad. we had races down the big slide and smoked a bowl in this little wooden house on the playground.

    had an amazing day yesterday too .
    cori kate tim chris and i went swimming in the waltham resevoir... it was absolutely beautiful.

    kate took pictures:

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    ew fatness.

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    i have such a good feeling about this summer, its happy.

    Current Mood: contentcontent
    Current Music: beck
    27 May 2006 @ 02:19 am

    Which Psychedelic children's Movie do you belong in?

    You are from Yellow Submarine. Trippy, spaced-out, artistic and fun to be around.
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    Current Mood: lonelylonely
    Current Music: the morning after girls.
    08 May 2006 @ 08:37 pm
    Your Power Color Is Gold

    At Your Highest:

    You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.

    At Your Lowest:

    You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.

    In Love:

    You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.

    How You're Attractive:

    You passion for life makes others passionate about you.

    Your Eternal Question:

    "Am I Having Fun?"
    Current Mood: jittery.
    Current Music: shpongle. -- shpongle spores.
    04 May 2006 @ 01:56 am
    wahhh hoo. make my fucking day.

    ima sit outside all day en smoke grass.
    twenty... wierd.
    Current Mood: time for beddd.
    Current Music: phish -- slip, stitch & pass.
    13 April 2006 @ 06:16 pm
    Your Five Factor Personality Profile


    You have high extroversion.
    You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
    You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
    Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"


    You have low conscientiousness.
    Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.
    Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.
    Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.


    You have medium agreeableness.
    You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
    But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
    You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.


    You have medium neuroticism.
    You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
    Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
    Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

    Openness to experience:

    Your openness to new experiences is high.
    In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
    You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
    A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.
    Current Mood: highhigh
    Current Music: grateful dead -- hundred year hall.
    19 October 2005 @ 07:44 am

    floating freedom in a flowing liquid pounce
    her flaming private vessels
    spewing pleasure of intenseness
    raven spread she wings
    her soaring orchidry

    down her evergrowing porcelain silhouette
    her toe slippers flounder and her soul begins to sail
    reality rebirths as she soons to neverland
    hopes have hopped and sprouted
    mocha steams with creme
    gaia has screamed thru growth
    and the wicked have been green

    lighting sunrayed rivers
    narcissus heil this dream

    maeve's forever virgin eyes
    such nymph
    suede satchel
    smoke of sage
    morning of the glory
    dusk of oracle frees my way
    Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
    Current Music: Miles Davis: Kind of Blue